I once lamented that leaving Calgary didn't make it feel any less my home, but after living in Winchester for three years I had two homes, which meant I would always be homesick for at least one of them no matter where I went. Now I'm in my fourth year of living in Toronto, my … Continue reading A Kind of Sickness: An Angsty Lament
The Emotional Fallout of Election Results
It is November 6th, 2024. Trump just won his second term as president. Everyone is expressing their thoughts and emotions on social media. Instead of adding to the melee on there, I figured I'd put my thoughts in the place I created to put my thoughts in. Besides, I have too many to limit myself … Continue reading The Emotional Fallout of Election Results
Thinking of Bones
Of all the things this Russian-Ukrainian war makes me think about, I did not expect the catacombs of Paris to be one of them. And yet, now that they're in my head, it makes perfect sense. Almost six years ago, I visited those catacombs and wrote this, which perfectly conveys what I'm starting to feel … Continue reading Thinking of Bones
Streaming Instead of Screaming
In my last post, I mentioned that there were two people in the world whose loss I didn't think I could handle. Now one of them has COVID. Amy was over for my birthday the week before she tested positive, so I had to quarantine and got tested for the fifth time. Negative. The tests … Continue reading Streaming Instead of Screaming
Airing Out my Grievances
My part-time job is a bit of a drive, but I've never minded because nothing beats coming off a long shift and breathing in the clean air on the way to my car. Each breath feels like I'm getting triple the oxygen that I get in the city, and it feels so good. After my … Continue reading Airing Out my Grievances
Oh, Canada
For those of you who are unaware, today is Canada Day. Some of my best memories have been on this date, including camping with family, my first time going up the Calgary Tower as a kid, getting to choose a new book at the bookstore, seeing fireworks with my first boyfriend, exploring celebrations downtown with … Continue reading Oh, Canada
Our Arena
Life is like the Hunger Games, except we don't know we're in the arena. We live in our little bubble, knowing it's shit but not knowing anything different. Every so often we reach the end, we hit the wall, we see a ripple of electricity across what should be sky, and we realize it's all … Continue reading Our Arena
A Controversial Christmas
TW: Discussion around rape. There was some controversy this year in Canada when a radio station/broadcasting company "banned" the song "Baby It's Cold Outside". I put "banned" in quotes because choosing not to play a song isn't really banning it, otherwise I'd have been banning a song every time I chose "next song" when my … Continue reading A Controversial Christmas
My First Rant (About Everything)
My computer is getting slower by the day and it is driving my crazy. Also driving me crazy? My room. I don't have a chair for my desk so I have to bend over to use my laptop which is uncomfortable and probably bad for me. I have stuff all over the floor in an … Continue reading My First Rant (About Everything)
Time and the Lack of it
As much as I like to moan and groan about how busy I am, I prefer a packed schedule to an empty one. I've had an empty schedule before. Well, it's not really empty, is it? It's just less productive, less active, lonelier. It's still full, but it's full of useless things. Two hours in the … Continue reading Time and the Lack of it
